I don't know what it is....but my fingers are itching to write. And so, because you all are along for the journey.... you get to come along with me. Yesterday was an absolutely productive and lazy day all crammed into one. I think a more accurate assessment of the day would be that it was very productive... but being able to do different things at a leisurely pace makes it much more enjoyable. This past Saturday, I was able to FaceTime in to watch my grams memorial service. My sister set up her iPad which was put in a chair. So, in many ways, I took a seat and was present with family and friends who came together to celebrate the life of my sweet grams. I was so thankful that the internet worked so well. There wasn't one interruption the entire ceremony. Amen. Something to be celebrated for sure! The few minutes before the ceremony were spent goofing around with my siblings. It was so great to see cousins, siblings, my parents, aunt and uncle, and so many others!
|Looking at the program... through the computer screen|
|Grams and I... just a few years back!|
|Chilling with Jonny and Caroline.....|
And days go by. Much time is spent in the clinic. Taking care of the sweet little children who come in including the sweet jaja's (grandma's). Lots of sweet opportunities to love on, treat, send back to class, and care for. Lots of coughs, colds, and fevers. An equal amount of small scratches, upset stomaches with smiling faces, and other similar needs. Wisdom from above and care no matter the seriousness of the illness. Lots of opportunities to be faced with things that are completely out of my league... and to lean into my God. He's got this. He's got His children. And He's got me. Just today, I found myself beating myself up over something. Questioning my decision and fearing the outcome of my decision. And the self-doubts came.... the worries... the lies... and the "oh my... am I cut out for this?".... and then it's an opportunity to confess the pride, stand in the truth, and make the choice to rest in HIS goodness. He has led. He has brought me here. and I choose to rest in that. To be brutally honest, it's a bit hard to do. BUT crucial to do. And something I have the choice to do. And so I choose to stand in HIM. If there is something I have seen God do in the past year.... is do the impossible. The absolute impossible. Today, sitting beside Ketty as we celebrated her 39th year of life, I was overcome with emotion. The emotion of significant goodbyes this past month along with the gift of sitting by a friend who is celebrating another year of physical life. A friend who has seen her God in sweet and amazing ways and is eager to share HIS goodness with so many others. And so I choose life .... life in the little details of my heart.... and I rest in the gift that He has given me.... to be His hands and feet to the amazing individuals who come to the clinic each and every day... to each child within my family group.... to my friends who have become like family to me. My little brief blog post sorta got serious. But, I am ok with that. I hope you all are too. ( c :
And speaking of life.... check out just some of the sweet, little ones that I get to interact with at the clinic. Absolutely priceless. Absolutely Adorable. Absolutely an honor to walk with em.
|Sweet Izzy... washing hands is A-OK!|
|Miriab washing her hands....|
|Talking with JaJa Congo|
|The foot soak....|
|the needs of the clinic... pill bottles, coca cola and a pinard|
I know it's not Christmas.... but all I got to say as I close this blog post is.... Merry Almost Christmas! and the second is....
19 I call heaven and earth to witness against you today, that I have set before you life and death, blessing and curse. Therefore choose life, that you and your offspring may live,